no one can possibly imagine how much i hate my life right now. it only takes one word out of my mouth to screw everything up. i cant do the right things, i cant make everybody happy at once and i need to let go of the fact that i cant always have what i want, thats life. im nobody special to think they need to have everything their way. i need to learn how to handle the truth when its thrown at me. maybe i dont need to trust people but i need to try, no matter how many times im broken from doing so. i cant just assume everyone i come across is bad. i need to start listening to others and take into consideration how they feel about things. im done running from people. i need to stand up for what i want, do what i need to and worry about myself. i thought when i finally gave up giving and giving to people and started asking would be a sign of relief but its not. maybe then again im just seriously fucked up and there is no help out there for me.
It sucks when your ignored by that one person whose attention means the world to you…
